How it feels

I miss him, I’m not lie but it is real, I miss him.

I just want the moment back for a while. I try to remember it but, I just can remember some. I hate to say this but, I really miss him. I don’t get it.

We never do the family activity like the common family did such as laugh together in a holiday, travelling family with father who driving the car, . I’m really want do the thing, maybe someday.

I see myself carrying the little bag using the elementary school uniform. That day, I was waiting someone to pick me up to back home but there is nobody came. I cannot crossed the way, but I want to back home. I was tiring in my waiting. I just fear to cross that way. I forgot how fear I was, that I remember just, nobody came to pick me up back to home. Suddenly, my courage came and I thought that I should did it alone. I have to take care my life with my myself, just myself because everybody was busy with their business.

Until now, I always try not to rely on someone but I realize that a human can’t live alone. They need another helps. You know when you feel another people doesn’t care of you and they live you alone in the cross road. You don’t have to be afraid cause you still have your God in your life. Just rely on God!

I still haven’t known, how it feels, How does it feel to have a complete and happy family